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UNDER CONSTRUCTION!

Hello! I am not sure where to start, but my heart has really been praying about my blog lately and my thoughts and feelings on trying to revive it. I decided, its going to happen, and I am going to go back to where my heart was with this years ago...on praying for my (our) children. I see this school year opening and my heart wants to just pray pray pray for my children as they enter the world. A new school year started today and I have the privilege of working at the same school where my oldest daughter Arcadia attends. Our relationship has grown tremendously since she and I have been together. I get to see first hand the struggles of a high school student. What an incredibly scary place to be, but then again, each age presents its own scary situations. If you know me, you know that I have 4 children. Arcadia is 16 and a junior in high school, Eireland is in 8th grade, Tristan is in 5th grade and Phoenix is in 2nd grade. I am trying to raise world changers and what better place
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A Time for Everything

I do not like change. Simple as that. I do not like change that is for the better, I do not like change that is for the worse. I just do not like change.  It literally hurts my heart. The reason my favorite book is Little Women is because I can identify with Jo and her desire to have everything stay the same. EVERYTHING. I wrestle with changes in my life much like in the life of Jo. Unfortunately for me life doesn't stand still and changes occur on the daily. Recently my sister challenged me to a Bible verse challenge on Facebook. She has the best intentions and when she asked me why I hadn't posted any Bible verses my answer was appalling and party true. My answer, "I don't like the Bible." Hear me out before you close this blog and judge me relentlessly. I said it was only partly true. The truth is this. I feel lost, mostly because I am experiencing a lot of change in my life, things I have no control over. Arcadia's best friend moved away, we chose a
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I Haven't Written Because...

I haven't posted on my blog in more than a year. I wanted to, I thought about it, I even wrote posts to be shared and then I didn't. My heart is here, my desire is here, but my confidence is not.  I wanted my blog to be about parenting, about loving your children and about encouraging one another and in the past year I have felt like more of a failure in all of these areas. I have struggled as a mother, I have struggled as a wife, a sister, a daughter, a friend, you name it, I have felt as though I have struggled, and if not struggled, then failed all together. I could not share my heart if I did not have my act together right?  Then it happened.  I was scrolling on Facebook and it hit me like a ton of bricks and each word (well, almost each word as we have different names) rang so very true. I thank the Lord for my youngest sister, I actually thank him for each of my precious sisters as they all add something to my life, but in this case it is my 19 year old sister
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Have you missed me?

So much has happened since I last wrote a blog entry- tell me this, are you interested in hearing?  Subscribe to the blog and you'll see it newly brought to life. <3
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To Share or Not to Share?

I wish anxiety and OCD were as cut and dry as something like asthma. What causes it? What sets it off? What do you do to make it better? Simple right?  For anxiety and OCD it's SO different, and when it happens to a child, again, it's so so different. I can't answer the question, "Well, what does he need to be successful in the classroom?" My answer today might not be my answer tomorrow or a week from now. "Phoenix needs to stand up while he works, he needs to be able to move around. He needs to be able to do this would the teacher thinking he isn't doing his work or is a distraction." But next week it might be, "He needs to wash his hands 13 times without the teacher thinking that he's 'playing' in the bathroom." It's not the same all the time.  I am so thankful that this year Phoenix has had a teacher that has accommodated him and adjusted things and has been aware of his 'issues'. She knows exactly the right place
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Loving Others On Terms That Are Not My Own.

Never mind that I haven't blogged since Arcadia's 13th birthday, which was in May. Never mind that I have been so neglectful of this blog, I think that the name says it all. I am too dang busy! Recently we have been going over a series of sermons on church that really have God working on my heart. Not just working, but working OVERTIME and then some. What last nights sermon boiled down to is love, and loving other. Don't get me wrong, I love others, I do. But I tend to love them on MY terms, and MY terms only. Our pastor asked us when the last time we did something for another person in love, and I thought smugly to myself, I do, all the time. Then he asked, when was the last time we went above and beyond? Loving someone extravagantly. I had to be honest with myself, and the answer was I didn't know when. Let me set the stage, I went into church with an unsettled heart, and so during our beautiful worship set, I prayed. Because I was coming into the service with a
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So Now She's 13!

Arcadia turned 13....Thirteen, say that with me TEEN. I have a teenager. When I was younger I never imagined I would have children. I thought two things would happen: A. The rapture would take place or B. I would die before I had children. Don't laugh, I actually thought that. Now I realize, I'm old! Now here I am a day after my oldest child turned 13 reflecting. Arcadia was born ON Mother's Day in 2001 at 9 pm after a long miserable labor. I'm sorry, I don't think the labor process is a beautiful thing. I just don't I think it's gross and I had to make sure a each of my children were CLEAN before they handed them to me- judge all you want, it doesn't change my opinion or make me a bad mom. Although I didn't think the labor process was a beautiful thing, becoming a mother was.  In 13 years, Arcadia has taught me more about myself than I could imagine ever learning in a life time let alone 13 years. We have gone though ups and downs and awkward times
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