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A Time for Everything


I do not like change. Simple as that. I do not like change that is for the better, I do not like change that is for the worse. I just do not like change.  It literally hurts my heart.

The reason my favorite book is Little Women is because I can identify with Jo and her desire to have everything stay the same. EVERYTHING. I wrestle with changes in my life much like in the life of Jo. Unfortunately for me life doesn't stand still and changes occur on the daily.

Recently my sister challenged me to a Bible verse challenge on Facebook. She has the best intentions and when she asked me why I hadn't posted any Bible verses my answer was appalling and party true. My answer, "I don't like the Bible." Hear me out before you close this blog and judge me relentlessly. I said it was only partly true.

The truth is this. I feel lost, mostly because I am experiencing a lot of change in my life, things I have no control over. Arcadia's best friend moved away, we chose a new school option for Eireland, our dear friends are moving away, a student of mine passed away, I am struggling in my relationships with others and so on. In a way, I felt lost, and mostly stubborn. I know where I can find my answers, I know where I can find the guidance and peace I need, I know these things. I have so much scripture memorized that it just pops into my head. My problem was this. I don't want things to change and so if I don't go searching for peace or answers then they wont change right?

Wrong. Arcadia's best friend is already in Arizona. The Uhaul has been packed and a new home has been bought for my friends, Eireland started school yesterday, my student has passed away, and on and on. Ignoring these things will not stop them from happening. My heart still hurts every time I think of one of these things. But today is different. I finally decided to get over myself and open up my Bible to the place that I find so much encouragement. Ecclesiastes. Always has been one of my favorites as it directs us to look to Jesus and realize circumstances are only for a season.

So, as I deal with change, I read and cling to this:

Ecclesiastes 3:1- There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.

 Life goes on. I will probably struggle with the idea of change all of my life. The struggle only brings me back to one thing- that is the hope and peace that Jesus provides. What I am learning is that I do not have to be stuck in my disheartenment of change, but I can strengthen and deepen my relationship with him every time change happens. Maybe one day I will learn to accept change and maybe even celebrate it, but for now, I will accept and understand that the changes I am experiencing are to bring me to my knees and seek him.

And so with that, on my personal Facebook page, in all its glory, you can find day 1 of the Bible verse challenge, hopefully encouraging someone's heart today. 
Until Next Time- Love God and Love Others

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